Hungry for good things.

 

We all have a hunger

Florence + The Machine is one of my favourite artists of all time. Ceremonials got me through some rough times, especially “Shake It Out”, “No Light, No Light”, and “Never Let Me Go”. Even back when I never paid for music, I spent my hard-earned McDonald’s money on all the albums because I love her music that much. The lyrics speak to the core of my broken soul. The melody mends my fractured spirit and lifts it back up to where the light is. When I have my dark days, I put on Ceremonials on repeat until I am cleansed of the darkness.
When she started teasing this song, I couldn’t help but think of this post I made about a month ago, which also sparked something I am currently writing about cravings (it’s still a work in progress). Of all the seven deadly sins, people might think lust or anger are my main issues… but it’s truly gluttony. I turn to food and drink whenever things go wrong. I reach out for dessert or alcohol to fill in the void in my chest.

I thought that love was in the drugs
But the more I took, the more it took away
And I could never get enough

I make jokes about food being the way to my heart – which is true, but some days I wish it isn’t. I know I cannot fill the emptiness with cake or cookies. I kid around by saying a warm cup of cocoa is as good as the warmth you feel being in someone’s arms… or a certain kind of food is so good that it’s an orgasm in your mouth… but let’s be real, it isn’t. I starve myself then I binge. Sometimes it’s food, sometimes it’s emotions, sometimes it’s people, connections…

In an instagram post, Florence briefly shared that “Hunger” is about the many ways she tried looking for love in things that were not love. It made me fall in love with the song even more, and I honestly have lost count of how many times I’ve played this song since its release.

[ I apologize for the rambling. I love this song, but I am also exhausted from working and I think I am not very coherent at the moment. But I love this song and I love Flo.]

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